colourless world

new chapter of life

2009-05-09T02:15:00.000-07:00

Hey wonder anybody still visit mine blog but just blog anyway pretty bore so here i am still remember during army day everyday thinking of ORD but now wish was still in army as dun need to slog so hard like now to earn money ..

human have to lose what they have before they will tresure it but believe me if it is your it will come back to u if it is not your there is no point of trying to keep it by your side .. how i wish i was the person that you trying to keep but i just dun have the guts to tell u i have feeling for you i scare tat if thing dun turn out good we might not able to be fren anymore so i just keep it deep down in mine soul i myself also when i start to like you maybe during the time i was so down we talk almost everynite and u have help me to walk out of what i was dwelling on for so long and i feel very comfortable when talking to you and share joy and promable .. but hearing u always been hurt so badly i am worry and sad for u ...

I just want YOU
YOU are the missing piece of puzzle to fit into mine incomplete puzzle

a moment of thought

2008-12-23T01:12:00.000-08:00

yo dear fren merry christmas ..just bore and want to blog something .. just hope every1 of mine fren is doing well and getting wat they wan in their life .. as we grow older we know the real value of money .. and everyday we think of how to strive to make more money .. but does we noe wat we really wan after all the money we get ... buy lot of cloth food car house new phone ....etc but after we gt all this new thing is out and we just go throug the cycle again .. but what the truth value of money to me is to let mine elderly parent retired and enjoy everyday and dun worry abt money ..and something money just can't buy ..

will u give me another chance to show u i will nt break mine promise to u ever again
all i need is a another chance even people tat have been jail also have another chance
why can't i.. am i really still not able to let u have faith and trust in me again ..

STRESS

2008-07-03T02:27:00.000-07:00

helllo to all fren .. so long nv update le this few week lot of think are happening haiz i really dun mean to play stun de i am really sick dun really think to tat deep hope u guy really can understand i just wan to be like last time everytime can chat and laught together thou misunderstanding happen after all we are still brother hope what have past let it past hao ma ..

if you do read i feel happy for u coming back to singapore le finally 4month plus pass le wor wish u early happy bday think on tat day might be busy yup remember wor tell me when will u be free when u are back i wan to book a appointment wif u wor if nt dun noe need to wait till when haha ok ..

congraz to lena passing ur FFT and hope we both can pass our TP on OCT ba haha

time to move on le but dam tired to move or no confirndent to move on haiz

LOST

2008-05-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

hmm finally national runway cycling end le can rest le ..gt mild sunburn doing duty wif red monkey but was funny anyway hmm dun talk abt work so much liao been a long time since i blog wonder who else other then mine camp mate view mine blog i am lost i dun noe wat to do moving on is so dam F*** hard it just keep falling back quit smoking is the same too wonder if there any1 can remove part of mine memory so i dun feel so pain just leave me wif memory tat we are just fren i can fine wif the happy memory been remove at lest i noe i once have this happy moment wif u is enough le ..keep having headach more often after the accident during duty tat hit mine head haiz dun noe wat to write le lar ton of uneasy feeling too sae bt i will just keep it bury deep down inside me till a day i break down and mine brain will auto block tat wonderful memory ba ..

seeing tat u are nt effected i am feel so relive hmmm ok then bare wif the few more month and it will be throu dun be lazy anymore liao le study hard

(wat do i really wan i also dun noe just wish some1 is there wif me to share and spent time wif )

I am Tired

2008-04-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

hello seem tat mine tag box abit quiet think no 1 seeing mine blog ba ..T_T but then is also good wat i sae in here no 1 see is been so long i last update ..same old shit in camp gt to go back to camp tml wtf man we only like bk out for 25 hrs then go back le haiz go back for RT and walk to ground on the up coming OP so no choice just bare wif it ORD soon 8 more month haha dun noe wat i am thinking and feeling restless off day at hm rest also dun do wat online just chat and chat only so meaningless haiz .. wat happening to the happy go luck and thinking of mine future de me i feel so lifeless and moody .. something wrong wif me ?? depression ??possible tot of sucide but think is crazy .. some 1 help me can some 1 save me pls i really dun noe wat happening to me .. coz i wan thing too badly missing some1 too badly staying in the past for too long ?? i am really tired le i need to rest and hope some 1 can bring me to a stop and rest there forever ?? ok then i shall go sleep le hope the sunshine will bright mine day up tml and mine camp mate they nv fail to make mine day ..yup..

i just wish time can stop at some point of time in life so i can enjoy wif u forever but it just a wish tat can nv come truth ..

2008-03-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

hello to all mine fren is a nice day hw every1 doing ?? hmm woke up quiet early today to pei mummy to go market to have lunch and see doctor reach hm sms YJ ask him out for a movie we went to TM de GV to see after IVAN come meet us for dinner the food dam salty man if everyday go eat there can go NKF liao then IVAN see wei lun then we tot is other but in the end is really him haha such a small world .. after that went back to play game till 2200 then rush to best to buy a webcam thinking of webcam chat wif her but seen her online but no reply frm her maybe busy updating her blog ba abit disspointed but is okey still have other day thou tml going back to camp and will be staying quite long just hope she will still answer mine call and reply mine sms to her ..ok le going sleep le tml going back camp early bye bye

r those word at the bottem for me to read ??if it really for me i will accept it and dun will nv bring up tis matter anymore le ..the past will be always in mine heart and there will be always a place for u to stay in mine heart i may nt be the best in the past but i will be the best in the future .. sry for the mistake i done in the past but u are the one and only i put in whole heart miss ya .. if thing can't go beyone fren then let it be ba stay the same i guess is the best ba

2008-03-08T09:01:00.001-08:00

hello to all mine fren is been long time no blog le haha busy in camp sian but lucky got the NS men is back so now can blog was admit in hospital on the 030308 haha was sent in due to head injure lolok liao is bit lame of how i got myself injure .. doing check on a van then i told the uncle then he just close the boot then it hit mine head then giddy and vomit then was sent to CGH just only inform my bro i admit to hospital .. reach there doctor gave x-ray and say no crack on the skull then he gave a jab and put me under observe for 4 hrs and admit to ward .. then noe tat 1 of mine bunk mate also at the same ward he was sent in 1 day before me then we talk till morning then discharge and went base .. done 5 hrs duty on fri then went to see MO coz still giddy and got vomit then he sae is ok take a few more week to recover if not then will see wat can be done haiz by then dun noe wat will happen the headach is so dam sux man can do thing for long hrs now will can sleepy and will vomit .. hiaz think will stop here going to rest le then later play MJ at yew joo house bye ..

(was thinking of you when i was lying on the ward bed how i wish u were there to accompany or hear your voice really miss you hope you will give me 1 more chance to love u )

2008-02-09T12:05:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey how is every1 this CNY got win $$$$$$ hahaha nw blogging at yew joo house haha bit of sian missing some1 now wish she was beside me but dun think is able ba when to church member brother John home to do service we watch a movie call beat the giant the story line was touching good show wroth watch when we pry faithfully to god god will answer us in his way and will put us to his wonderful plan yup PTL :) then when the show abt to finish i went of due to bit late of at yew joo house for Ma Jia game haha so far so good yeah $_$ haha ok lar shall stop here nite to all fren out there ..

*when will i have the chance* god please help me to win her heart back amen

2008-02-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

hello to all mine fren first happy chinese new year wah tonight now i update mine blog i think i only sleep for 3 hr for past 48 hrs work on the eve of new year till midnite then MJ took over stay wif him awhile watch fire work and went around base till 4am then sleep then wei jie came at 7.30am wah thanz bro come so early but can't wake up so sleep awhile more then shower and book out le then reach hm kor kor reach hm then shower and daddy mummy also then we move of to our visitions to ppl hm ... was at hm da ju house last stop and abt to go hm play ma jia then lost T_T but ok la haha lost to a 12 yr old kid man can;t believe he never win the game but just kan and kar win alot le almost 3/4 of mine cash mine haha but in the end the sae play play only no money but i still pay little as later i playing agian so no bad luck so when go mine childhood fren house to play till now haha win abit but also happy win ma haaha ah bao this yr still the same but this yr at da ju house not tat bore chat abt army and stuff then time pass so fast heez ... ok lar dun noe wat to write le but thanz again to all mine brother in camp that help me out to exchange duty wif me so i can have mine CNY so smooth thanz .. nite to u all ...

*hope u will be back wif me let start again on a brand new yr hao ma i really miss u and no 1 can really replace u in mine heart .. if u see this message pls give me 1 more chance hao ma wif out u mine life is so lifeless and colourless only u can lighten mine day and enjoy every moment of life *

2008-02-04T07:30:00.000-08:00

yo yo it has been so long never update le so is there any1 out there missing me ?? haha CNY coming le soon sia but on that day need to do duty haha but thanz guy for u i can have mine 1 day and 2nd thanz for exchanging wif me help me by coming over early and end ur 1 day early and come back for duty thanz a million to wei jie kenneth CK eric and wei li if not i also dun noe how sia .. think tml going out to buy some CNY goddie to put in bunk to let u guy enjoy think tat all i can do for asking help ba treat u guy this only ... for this CNY thing Yew joo put in lot of effor to disscuse wif D shift ppl and they are so CB man but after old spec shawn kok came in and settle .. so we can have 1 more ppl go out for CNY .. not sure mine BCP thing have come to a end le ma but pc sae i will be pull out le but this mount still do maybe coz me and wei jie combine together equal to 1 ppl on whole mount leave so put BCP easyer to plan ??? hope after CNY thing will go smoother and hope our aduit coming will pass and everything will be good thou the year .. yeah .. ok lar going to dream land le buay buay nite to mine dear fren
arh sick of smoking le but is dam hard to quit..
(even thou u still take me as a gd fren feeling for u will never change just like the show bull fighting the boat follow the river flow and will not turn back and feeling will not change ..if u wan to alight i will stop at the dock for you to alright but i will wait for u at the dock for u to return and set off again )

Wat mine name mean haha

2008-01-31T11:09:00.000-08:00

What Wei Min Means

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

this was so on 1 of mine fren blog abt wat is the hidden meaning abt mine name haha

2008-01-25T19:22:00.000-08:00

yo after so many day never blog ..dun noe where to start liao haha.. think abt work ba sian going back to BCP sian at CP1 do so good still have to go back arrr going crazy and super sad sia ..ok enough of work stuff if nt everytime mine blog is all abt work haha ..went go to vivo city wif yew joo calvin CK loser MJ ah heng and sgt ivan was late due too some stuff reach there late sorry man then we walk around and window shopping then went long john silver to eat then go walk around again then go eat again haha no wonder getting fatt man eat and eat haha .. after tat we went hm haha... yesterday went to accompany yew joo buy phone then i also tem tio so i also buy a phone and a change mine number le man haha wah after so many year finally i sign mine own Hp line haha ..we stay there around 2 hour sia dam long then we went fish and Co to have our dinner so full sia 1 time i can't finish food sia haha so we took a cab hm but no cab so we took bus 31 .. but reach a place even no cab haha lol then walk then saw a cab get to yew joo hm and he left us money and go le left me and heng haha so reach hm around near 2330 ba got nag by mum lol then morning mum drag me out of bed to market to buy stuff and reach hm around 10 .. and here i am now blogging haha ok tat all abt bye guys .. think will join u guy at the next coming RT liao ba

*hope can start a new yr a fresh start wif u again *

colourless world

2008-01-21T03:32:00.000-08:00

hey fren is another day pass .. this few day in camp have lot of fun sia .. but those pilot like noob sia dun noe how to fly their plane .. but overall ok lar been pull out from brain cell free so good sia but do to long of sit down checkpoint le now can't stand so long liao .. lol but nvm overall fun at cp2 caught alot of ppl try to smoke us .. today wan is so piss show his phone while walking away from CK .. from checkpoint i saw it was a camera phone lor i step out ask him come back and i took the phone from him and slide the phone up and point at the camera and sae have disable already then i took a picture and sae seem not now i will confiscate it and if u wan go find mine OC .. the look on his face look as if he wan to wack me on the spot haha but who care .. i told him u think mine fren wat a idot ar just walk pass like tat ..but in the end still get caught by me hahaha .. then when to NSC for medical appointment reach hm around 6 ate mine dinner and there i am now updating mine blog .. tml have to work arhhh sian .. but no choice no money ..

*mine life is colourless you are the only painter tat can colour up mine life*

2008-01-19T08:53:00.000-08:00

hello another day have ended took off today went hm for spring cleaning :) when online awhile chat .. thanz to cheryl intro me a show bull fighting qutie nice and emo haha .. but ppl upload till eps 10 only haiz abit sian if not watch till morning and stright away do the spring cleaning again .. maybe u guy see le will angry take off went hm finish cleaning and watch show sorry guys .. CNY coming wonder the eve and the first 1 will be still done by us C or D shift only ??
alright go To sleep le bye gd nite

2008-01-17T06:46:00.000-08:00

hello is just another day have past nothing much too sae today whole day at home watch tv .. yesterday went out wif heng yew joo kenneth and MJ to watch movie and have supper and breakfast at bedok .. drank beer so long never drink so shiok sia .. on the way home half way ask him to stop and have a leak haha so sian tml going back to camp liao dun noe will oc let me go back to main check point to do duty ma .. and hope co will give chance man thou the word he use can feel he is half hearted but someone is pushing blame hope oc will help me sae a few good word to save me sia ..

2008-01-13T02:51:00.000-08:00

It been a long time since i last update no com to update , lot of thing to sae but dun noe start from where .. let talk abt camp stuff .. think of going back to camp tml morning to duty is so sian not coz of stand gate is just tat is going to brain cell .. tat place is driving me nut miss the day in flight sleep together got OP and run together play ping pong and CS .. but now i see some selfish or maybe so people tat dun think abt wat other feel or care abt it .. sux right some just follow the flow to those who is reading tat are mine camp fren u guy should noe wat i trying to sae is not tat i too emo or wat is just tat is really tired liao le seeing most ppl think abt themself first and then when the another party get hurt then realise is just to late to sae i am sorry dun u think so thou i feel tat no 1 is perfect but when a person make a mistake do forgive and gave a chance for the person to prove the worth again not just leave the person there and let it stand up again by itself and face everything by him or herself give a hand is not easy to stand again from where u fall with no hand or little help .. wat piss me off is tat i am getting myself out from brain cell ''people'' think of way to stop me (should noe who are the people I refer too) come on guy i noe no 1 like to go brain cell i have been in flight there too i noe how it feel but we have to face it not just tat if i and david is fix for brain cell mean tat u guy no need to go .. wat if 1 day both of us did not come maybe i on leave or on mc and david have left the unit then how ask me to rest at brain cell as it is not ''siong'' so no promble is it .. when the mount is relax no 1 speak abt it but when it come to siong part every1 scream abt their detail .. i feel tat u guy feel tat brain cell people can't take time off or early off just coz it need a replacement to go over there to take over even just to sleep on is it really tat hard?? when i hear from some fren over at flight told me wat u guy sae behind mine back it really hurt and think abt it am i really such a CB kia did i do anything to cause u guy to charge or extr or even SOL i may like to smuggle thing this and tat but who dun is just tat i am suay get caught and it seem tat i am the only person and all blame are been push to me and is not from sgt or Pc is actually from some of the men really wan to thanz those who stand by me when thing happen .. as i sae before who is good to me and standby me i will be the same to him when thing happen but who CB me i will find fault and give him back double of wat he gave me .. guy if u think tat i take ex here and there and eye sore or not happy come tell infront of mine face no need to sae behind me just trash thing out .. if u think u are a hero no need to see doctor even u are sick and still chiong i think u are just too stupid .. let me tell u here tat i ex foot wear is due to foot infection and since in brain cell i then use this FUCKING ex if i am standing gate u think i will still use tis FUCKING ex .. if u think running OP in FUCKING slipper is FUCKING funny then u try it ur FUCKING SELF ..

Lifeless

2007-12-28T04:30:00.000-08:00

another day have past duty is going crazy in brain cell but lucky I have god words wif me was reading and having david hp to play game so time past quite fast :) as tml most of them are going back to RT but i have ex for RT so no need go back so tml morning going market wif mummy to buy thing yup:) during duty call yew joo and rayan to chat was quite funny but guy something can joke for awhile but dun over do it as it do hurt .. i feel dam bad le as the case is still not settle i might seem to play along but dun le hao ma not blaming u guy on the blog is just how i feel abt it only ..

(personal stuff just wan to write out to let of wat in mine heart)

wonder wat urs feeling to me now is it only fren and no more other feeling i feel tat we are floating apart le use to chat wif u online and chat on the phone even u are busy and ur care and concern i miss you alot even if we are only fren i miss you feeling for you will never change and no 1 is able to replace you when you left mine life was still wif hope for you to return as time goes by missing u each dae is wearing me out i might be putting a strong front but i weak inside i might smile and laught out loudly but mine heart is crying out bitterly and aching hearing u are going to china for so long and knowing u going to spend ur bday there at the airpot i wish i could be there to wish you happy birthday and accompany you .. wonder if i die 1 day will you shear a tear for me will i be still in ur heart and memory or will time erase me away

life is so colourless and dark with out you

Just another day

2007-12-24T09:31:00.000-08:00

hello just created dun noe wat to write but is chistmas today meet up yew joo and ivan at parkway play game then ivan sae he tired and went hm me and yew joo went to meet up wif desmond CK and calvin (sry bro if spell wrong) and slack around and went hm ... wat a day haha .. hope everything come to an end soon wonder wat the punshiment quite worry abt it :(

wonder when mine world will be lighter up too see mine colourful world and only u are the one and only tat can light it and let me see mine colourfull world again